me being a class leader is SUX

assalamualaikum..
with everything that's been going on lately, i've been SO distracted and i'd probably forget my head if it wasnt attached to my neck.SERIOUSLY

PLZ allow me to bang myself now

         i never know that being a class leader can sometimes be so stressful. ya i got to admit that when lecturer got mad with me because of other student's mistake, the feeling is just so intense..and nothing i can do except blabbering  and give a free lecture to 'innocent-body-of-mine" (innocent ke?) , blaming myself that im not good enough to be a leader..and despite my face and body language remained completely unemotional, inside i always feel  a sudden surge of anger at everything, everyone..which make me such a complete hypocrite. huh! dear ALLAH, pls calm me down, and show me the right path..

gambar sekadar hiasan..wishing that i ca be this "cool"

another thing that i'm suck is when it comes to phone calls and text messages..usually when i checked my phone there will be like 5 unread messages and 7 or 8 miscalls from lecturers. so any important messages that i need to inform to other students only delivered to me 2 hours later..perhaps im not the type of person who got attached with my cell phone all the time..whenever im doing something important, lets say watching a movie(important ae?), i technically forget the fact that i own a cellphone.IM AWFUL AND HORRIBLE and i know it

sekali lagi aku letak gamna yg xde kaitan

OFFICIAL lists of how PATHETIC i am as a class leader:
 1) im not close with lecturer, im not friendly with them..
2) some students inform or discuss anything with lecturer without telling me 1st..i think its not fair for me, at             least inform me 1st so when other classmates ask me anything im not surprised with any changes made (well im the class leader, but it seems that i know the least..)
3) when people not paying attention the moment im announcing something in front of class, which required me to ask somebody else to do that for me.
4) when someone forward emotional SMS and people thought it was from me

hmm k la..byk lagi senanye nak tulis, but no idea,,the point is i clearly cannot satisfies everybody but one thing i can do is to do the best.. (w0w now im so SHAKESPEARE) bye!

some random stuff, sarah, and syasya

assalamualaikum..

hello again my diary, i am back with my mind so bloated after helping a form 2 boy with his MATHs

ok back to the story. i would love to say that i personally hate maths  maths. why almost of the question would have the sign of  "x" and "y" and asking to find the value of them.

like this simple question:

 x/43 = 1150, find the value of x?

HOMAIGOD, obviously there's only one" x" there..duhh! this always prove my theory that maths today is no longer makes any sense..i remember back in kindergarten where maths used to be realy fun..

the question would be fun and REAL..like this one:

1 chipsmore cookie plus another chipsmore cookie is...

 see how real it is..i bet now u agree with me..

ok ok..enough with the annoying story on how i basically doing my community servises.. well upon writing this, i actualy wanted to write something about my besties . tp cam xde idea plak. ok la just post couple of photos i had with them last few weeks ago..this little "hangout" practically release a "feel-good" hormone within my body ..coz tese girls realy rocks my dayy

from left: albino sarah, diabetic syasya and normal hana.

upon the meeting, we keep talking and laughing. the only moment that all of us keep quite is whenever we saw a dog . everybody was freaking out and acting like a statue..huhu..bengong punye anjing.. 

oh god how comfy is syasya's shoulder..tp ade bau ketiak ahh

see the tenderness on my face..udoh gile. hey sarah, u ingat u askar u blh buli i ke? tgk muke buruk pon aku publish je.x mcm oprg tu nk yg lawa je.nyampah!

we met at syasya's house and we sent sarah to UPNM. lepak2 jap had lunch together..telling stupid jokes..laughing so hard and non stop gosiping..that's the best activities to do with ur best buddy..

lets watch the rugby tournament..

sometimes i feel like im a part of UPNMstudent..oh how cool to  be askar..damn

monkey move..act dis photo has sarah in it..but  she practically doenst want to be included coz she said she doesnt look good..thats what makes me wonder, siince when she ever looks good? 

syasya always loves me..tq eh

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since sarah doesnt want to be included, so i cropped her out..booo

sile jgn menyambah.! suke ati i la nak dok cane pon

we are so gayyyy

saying im immature doesnt turn u into a mature person

ok bye..too busy today..too many things to do today..x caye? here's the list of things to do..check it out:

i went out with an army..fooling myself like the most desperate girl on planet earth

hello again my diary,
i am back with my heart pounding, regretting every moment that i spent with a guy named FAIZ (bukan nama sebenar)..why on earth i went out with him???..oh universe pls forgive me for going out with a random guy that i barely know just because i was freaking boring and lonely....universe answered : HANA U'RE SO PATHETIC..HE JUST WANTS TO WASTE HIS TIME AND GOING OUT WITH U WAS A GOOD OPTION AND GIVING HIM A CLEAR SIGNS OF HOW DESPERATE U ARE..

ngorat la i plzzzz

official lists of awkward moments i had with him:

1. we both had no idea where to go
2. both don't know what to eat
3. no idea what to talk about
4. so awkward with each other    
5. i cant even see him on the eyes..coz im afraid he will look at my UGLY n STRESS face (im a total idiot..we not even a couple..y should i bother about this thing..arghhhh 
6. i tried to cheer him up by telling some jokes..but i just received no respond from him...(should i suicide now????)
7. i wore a 4 inches high heel..but he walked damn fast..leaving me alone... ( malu ke jln dgn i??
8. i cant hear what he's saying..it was like he talked with volume 0..
9. after he sent me home, i texted him to say a TQ..but i receive no reply from him (what does this means?)
10. HE KEEPS TEXTING SOMEONE WHOM I HAD NO IDEA WHO is he/she. His smartphones seem to be the biggest distractions.  

now im blaming myself for not wearing this shirt.

erk..not this awkward..

he however teach me loads of very vulnerable lessons which are:

1. never going out with a guy that u barely know
2. never wear high heel whenever u're out with a guy
3. never ask a guy to give u a ride..drive ur own car..
4. never tell any joke..if u want to tell joke, make sure u tell it out loud so that u wont end up receiving no respond..
5. NEVER GOING OUT WITH A GUY WHO ALREADY HAS GIRLFRIEND..HE WILL JUSTIGNORE U WHILE TEXTING HIS SWEETHEART..wekkk...

i rather going out with a robot in future