To my mum,
My rock of proportions
I couldn’t have done it without you..
Assalamualikum everyone…
I know physically I OK and fine .., but
deep inside, no one would understands how I feel about my mom. And yes it’s true
that I still shade a tear thinking about her..because the other side of me is a
weak girl, pretending to act strong.
Recently, my mom was diagnosed with
Diabetic Foot Ulcer, that required the doctors to perform a surgery, to
amputate her right lower limb..and although the operation was successfully done,
the feeling was so INTENSE. I cant imagine what is the feeling to be my mom.
After the operation she looked so calm, talking to us and nurses around her
nicely, not even showing how upset she was..she’s so strong, so positive I
never thought she will be.. she kept praising the nurses and doctors in the
operation theater, saying that they were so good in comforting and motivating
her..the moment was like reading or watching a movie where my mom was the main
character..and me as the audience, just CRY CRY CRY for sure..
The worst part is not about my
mom..but its me. Why im so afraid to tell others about my mom? Hmm,maybe
because it’s still a shocking thing to me. To my friends, whose concern about
me, thanks for asking me about my mom. Sory that I couldn’t give u the answer,
because a part of me still in denial, not fully accepting what ALLAH S.W.T
destined my mom..but Insyallah I will fully accept this as a part of test from
HIM..just give me some times and pls pray for my mom’s recovery..sob
sob..emotional btol tulis entry ni..smpai basah baju..huhu..sob sob..good nite
pals!!
